The following contains spoilers for Wednesday’s episode of Survivor 47.

In fact, turns play a very important role in Survivorespecially this wild and twisted new era. But even more important in this game? Luck.

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In Wednesday’s episode, luck was certainly on Rachel’s side. After the merged tribe split in two, the former Gata member found herself on a losing team surrounded by all the former Tukus, making her an easy target when it came to Tribal Council. But after Sol found a timely Powerless Security buff while receiving the reward and gifted it to Rachel, she took a big step back to return to camp, leaving the remaining Tukus to eat one of her own. What made Tiyana perhaps the United Nationsluckiest player of the week, when her four tribemates turned against her and voted the Hawaii hostess out of the game. (Read our full summary here.)

Next, Tiyana spills some tea on Sue and Gabe and reveals which members of the alliance she feels most betrayed by.

TV LINE | You were very excited before the vote was rejected. What was going through your head there?
TIYANA HALLUMS | I think since I was with those people for 13 days, it would still hurt. So I was equally terrified for myself for the chance to go home, and I was also terrified for them, which was such a strange contradictory emotion that I’d never had before because you normally never cry for yourself or others. It’s usually one or the other. But I was crying for both of them at the same time because even though Gabe and I were adversaries, it’s still going to suck. I spent 13 days with this person and that’s all we had. That was our support system, that was our community and seeing one of them go would have been the worst. All the emotions were setting in because we were all so close and stumbling at that last moment was just heartbreaking.

TV LINE | How did it feel to be just one place away from being part of the jury?
I legitimately felt like I was going to throw up. Once I saw my name the second time, I knew I was done because that wouldn’t have made sense. I knew Gabe was going to enter my name, but once I saw that second vote for me, I knew I was going home. At that moment, honestly, I fainted. I think a lot of people can relate to that when they play. Survivor. You pass out because you’re like, “Shit. It was too early. This is not my time to go. There is no way this is real.” You almost detach yourself from reality. As you could see in the previous episodes, my face says it all. So that was all that was going on inside my body, both burning rage and sadness and all those things, devastation, all at once. The emotions were very real.

TV LINE | What was your experience watching it all back and how do you feel about it now?
As I get further and further away from the island and the game SurvivorI forget everything that happened. Sometimes I have to think: “Do I remember this correctly? Is this how things happened? Is that how the conversation went? Then when I look at it again, it’s almost surreal. I almost detached myself from myself even when I was in Survivor. It’s like a mix between “Have I ever played?” Survivor?” and also all these different scenarios that I wanted to do differently or all these things that I wanted to say. It comes and goes, and Survivor Now he lives rent-free right here in the back of my head. Unfortunately and fortunately. (But) I think seeing it again was a great closure at the same time. I felt like I was teleported back to the island and felt every emotion again.

TV LINE | Let’s talk to Rachel about all of this. Was she the safe vote if the advantage had not been taken?
I think he possibly would have gone home. However, that was not what he wanted to do. It was pretty obvious in the episode that I wanted to use her as a number because it wouldn’t make sense (I’ll die on this hill) for the five of us to expel Rachel because then it would make us look like liars, that we didn’t actually have any cracks and we’re actually Tuku strong. Then the six would just take us out one by one because why would I work with a Tuku five who seems so united when I could just take them out and weaken them a bit?

So I personally wanted to work with Rachel, but sometimes it seemed like I had no one to play with. When I think about it with my alliance members (which I didn’t have, who were non-existent, my imaginary friends), I felt like I was back in kindergarten and I’m waiting for someone to play with me in the sandbox. and I had fun times at recess and no one wanted to play with me. I wanted to build a big castle and do cool moves and all that stuff. But when you get blocked over and over again from putting ideas on the table and they, like Gabe said, (were) wounded birds (who) just flocked to Gabe and did what he wanted… there was really nothing to do. could do. So I didn’t want Rachel to leave, obviously, but it probably would have ended up like that because I didn’t have the numbers anyway.

TV LINE | Because did Do people flock to Gabe? Why do you think he couldn’t convince people to expel him?
That’s a big question to this day. I have no idea because usually in past seasons when someone tries to be a dictator or tell people what to do, it doesn’t turn out well because everyone tries to play their own game. As a member of the alliance, something like the four Reba (of Survivor 45), they were loyal to each other. Loyalty is a very hot commodity on the island. However, they were the ones who collaborated. They were the ones who constantly came back to each other to check in and say, “Are you okay with this plan? Do you have any other ideas? What’s another name we could write down just in case? But when it came to Gabe and his two injured birds that he was corralling, it was almost like it didn’t matter what he said… and you also saw that when Kyle was trying to tell Sue, like, “Hey, Gabe said you’re just a goat, you’re just a pawn for him to use.” She wasn’t listening to him at all. She wouldn’t even be receptive to that information.

Honestly, right after the TK vote, I should have been a lot more unhinged than I was. I had nothing to lose at that point because there was no way to convince any of them to do anything else. So yeah, to this day I have no idea why, because I know Caroline is a very smart player. Every time we talked, I felt like she was a good member of the alliance, that we had good collaboration skills. I felt like Kyle and I had really good collaboration skills, but I don’t know. I don’t know why King Gabe reigned in Tuku. I didn’t want to be a hurt bird, so I guess that’s why I had to leave.

TV LINE | Who do you feel most betrayed by?
I would say I probably feel more betrayed by Caroline and Kyle. When it came to Caroline, in that exact episode, she really broke down and said to me, “You would never write my name, would you, Tiyana?” This means everything. Being so close to the jury that I couldn’t even live with myself,” blah, blah, blah. And I said, “Hey, I got you. I would never write your name. You wouldn’t write my name. We have each other. Okay.” Then, it felt below the belt, even for Survivor. It’s a game. Obviously, you have to cut throats, you have to make decisions that work well for your game and I don’t blame her for that. But I could have cried to Sue. I could have cried to Gabe. But she chose me and then ended up expelling me.

And then Kyle, every time I told him a story, it always clicked because I really trusted him. I always made sure he was informed, so to see him also write my name and not bat for me was crazy too because I would have gone to bat for them. I think those two were probably the most heartbreaking and heartbreaking moments.

TV LINE | Did you think Sue was 45 years old?
Oh, absolutely not! Nobody believed that. And I don’t know why that was a problem. I don’t know why he decided to lie about that because it’s so much more impressive to say you’re 59 than 45. And I was like, “Wow, that’s so rude! Awesome.”

Also, very quickly, what I wanted to say about Sue bothered me a little: some tea. Sue kept saying that she is a strong, independent woman, and that’s amazing and that’s all I want. But as far as life on the island was concerned, she had breakdowns almost every day, like crying or she was sick or something was going on, and I was constantly the one comforting her and being there for her. So I don’t know if that was gameplay or something. I want to make it very clear that I never ruled her out because of her age or because she was older than us or whatever. He was writing her off because of her behavior. I don’t know what his game mode was. I still don’t know to this day what was going on, but whatever.

TV LINE | Was there some parallel universe where women could have taken the game to the end? Could that have worked?
(Shaking head) Knowing what I know now… I thought for sure they had my back because we shared a lot of very emotional conversations and stuff like that. We all got emotional together and were vulnerable and stuff like that. It was so moving, so powerful. (I thought) we could really go far. It didn’t matter. Every time Sue had any information, she ran straight to Gabe. I guess it was a good description Gabe gave because it was like a little bird that kept running towards him. King Gabe with all this information. Unfortunately, I didn’t want to be a wounded bird, and Gabe hit the nail on the head when he said at Tribal Council, “Sue will do anything we want her to do. We can’t control T.”

TV LINE | Finally, a very important question: What will you dress up as for Halloween?
(laughter) Great question, by the way! In fact, I have a Moana costume that’s sitting in my cabinet collecting dust. So maybe that or we’ll go for something even funnier, maybe like a Smurf or something hilarious. Something absolutely pocket-sized and random.

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