Trina says life has been dark since her miscarriage and the loss of her mother and brother

Hall opened the show by reading an excerpt from the artist’s book that discussed the miscarriage of her child with Lil Wayne during earlier phases of her career. The two dated between 2005 and 2007 and were even briefly engaged. She explained that she was initially unable to properly grieve the loss of her child due to stigmas surrounding getting pregnant as a female rapper and keeping her busy with her work.

“I cried on the road, I cried on the tour bus, I cried in a hotel, but I was supposed to go on stage that night. I was supposed to get on a plane that morning, I was supposed to do what I was doing,” she explained. “So it was something you liked to sweep under the rug.”

She continued, “I was so young and I was just hurt. I was sad inside. I just started questioning things I believe in and why I. You know, I didn’t understand. Was it something I did wrong? Why? I blame myself so much. “

A miscarriage was the prelude to many more painful losses for Trina. In 2013, her brother Wilbrent Bain Jr. murdered during a shooting; he was only 19 years old. During Tamron Hall’s show, she explained how her brother’s death pushed her into a dark space.

“But the loss of my brother made life dark for me. And to the world they see it as, you know, happy, smiling and just keep pushing. But for me, my life has been dark since 2013 until now. Ever since I lost my brother in 2013, I felt so disconnected from the world. I felt like I wanted my life not to be here.

Trina then added how she was dealt another blow when her mother died in 2019.

“I really stopped believing in everything I believe in in life. Like I just felt like God, ‘What are you doing? Why am I this?,” she said in tears. “I just started to break down. I don’t understand how you live without your mother?

“When I stood with my back against the wall, my mother was always there. She’s never been there for me. When she wasn’t there, I just felt alone in the world,” she added.

The “Pull Over” rapper also lost her 17-year-old niece to a shooting in 2022. Although the loss has been overwhelming, Trina has experienced some glimmers of joy, including recently getting married. Taylor married her partner, Benjamin Leon Kearse Jr., aka Swurv, on May 22 in Miramar, Florida.